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My Autobiography
03:54
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I grew up a king of screw ups
Find me in grandview
Sitting amongst the crowd
Look around all I see is pawns and bishops
Make your move nigga hope it's the right one
We know them dogs waiting for us to slip up
Waiting to catch us
I don't know if it's my paranoia
But it's more snakes around us
Rappers dying everyday
I pray I'm not next up
Just understand if I call you my brother
I'll risk jail for ya
I'll risk my ownself for ya
I love yo momma like my momma too
And yo siblings man I'm down for you
Just be aware
If you fail me
You should be very scared
If I stop speaking just know I'm bringing hell
Apologies I'm caught up in myself
With all these philosophies around me
I'm concerned with my wealth
I'm concerned for my health
I have trouble talking bout my problems
To me that's alarming
I can't go to sleep because my mind on war time
I used to think all the bad would blow by
Used to be in those layup lines just tryna take flight
I wanna do right
I find peace when I pick up the pen and I begin to write
talk about my life
What I've been through
Like the time
When I didn't have food
Only a dollar to my name
I'm staying at friends
Oh and I got finals too
Tryna make it through highschool
Geometry wasn't my only issue
Trapped in a circle I was tryna get loose
The lawyers were saying the same thing
What's new?
Tryna force me to see my pops
They had some screws loose
To the social worker who threatened me with jail
Bitch fuck you
Looking how far we done came
Even though we changed
Things still feel the same
I feel like I can never have friends only family
Because niggas say they there
But they plot on me early
I feel like I can't say what's on my brain
The only time I can say how feel
Is in between 16 bars
If you wanna know what's really real
I want something that lasts longer than a sports car
More expensive then the most blinged out chain
Better than having a hunid thousand in the tuck
What I really want is to feel loved
I'm come from a place where roses don't grow
To make it's like you gotta sell yo soul
I'm from a place filled with ghosts
Some of them alive
But they dead inside
Have me questioning is this really right
Last time we was high on life
I was like 15
Ambitions set on finer things
In and out of court
I was Dribbling like cp3
If I could grow wings
I would fly like Jordan
Everytime I jump
I land hard on the concrete
I'm having flashbacks
Momma quit calling me
Clearly you didn't see what I seen
That bruise on my back
Oh yeah that was just make believe
See as for y'all
I'm tryna paint the picture
Step into my shoes
I swear it gets Claritin clear
I Preserved, peep the atmosphere
No one can interfere
I feel like it's my rookie year
I'm destined for the stratosphere
Failure ain't an option
And it ain't my biggest fear
I'm scared to put myself out here
For in fear that I'll be forgotten
I'm scared to share my pain
Because every time I've opened up
Someone left me scared
I'm calling out for love but it feels so far
I'm sharing my thoughts
I hope this made you stop and listen
Thank you for your time
This my autobiography
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GrandView
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Arms to skinny to hold the block
I found comfort in my dreams
While niggas was hustling in the streets
I studied the heartbeats
Watching mother's crying
only time they see there sons
Is in there memory
Who knew maybe homie
Could have left a legacy
This world filled with treachery
Ways on me mentally
Wake every morning
I got check my energy
Never no know
When niggas might take the best of me
All my niggas want to do is make history
If we would make it past the summer
That's another victory
If we survive
Maybe we can take a ride
In that all black infinity
Level up and maybe we can drive the benze
Wake up to reality
I lost my Friend
He died in an accident
I'm reminded why I hate my environment
If this keeps up I'ma start acting violent
I'm wondering if there more to life than crying
How many times?
I sit up here and try and ease my mind
We get high
We just tryna find a light on the other side
I wanna stay alive
And I don't know if I'll make it this time
How many times?
How many times?
I sit up here and try and ease my mind
We get high
We just tryna find a light on the other side
I wanna stay alive
And I don't know if I'll make it this time
How many times?
I get tired of seeing death
Turn on the news this shit a mess
We worried bout what the president tweeting
Mean while another kid ain't eating
exposed to demons as teens
Wonder why we tryna find peace
We were sold dreams of owning beams
Manifest destiny we can grab anything
Run that back
As long as I got that gat
We can have anything
Pull up on him an start squeezing
Medics tried heal him
But he stopped breathing
Crazy cuz homie was posed to be something
Sitting in the hood
Wondering when it's the end for me
I wonder if I'm here
because some sins
that went unforgiving from the most high
Days I wanna cry
I look up to the sky and see the sun
What a wonderful view
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Can I Talk My Shit
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Where Y'all been at?
Y'all were posed to be here
I needed Y'all
Of course its all on me
Its all my fault
The fuck is this bullshit?
I'm sick of it
Fuck
Can I talk my shit
Running round town with a tape on my hip
Thinking bout the niggas we was with
Any problems we can straighten it quick
Any nigga hatin
You can suck my dick
Back when emotions ran high
You know it was like the summertime
Chilling on the porch
Until it was time to hide
Red truck drive by
It's go bye bye
Or stay looking from the sky
On my momma
I was tryna get by
A whole lot of dreams
Just tryna touch the sky
If I could I'd fly from this place
I'd never look back
Cuz living in the trap
I'm destined to snap
I was raised better than to throw up a set
In mind I feel like I got no time left
Might as well have my fun before I end up dead
No matter what the color is
When the lead hits the flesh we all see red
Aye can I talk my shit
Ride around town with a tape on my hip
Ugh my flow so sick
A lot of niggas hating you can suck my dick
When I open my mouth
It's like your ears on silence
It's they're no where to be found
Aye can I talk my shit?
Can I talk my shit?
Aye can I talk my shit
Sitting in the crib all pissed
What's the risk involved?
Lately I been wondering how many done fall
Was it worth it at all?
Cuz all this pain got a nigga wondering if I'll ever get far
I hate showing these scars
I hate having to stand tall
The only time I'm free is when there's alcohol
I can numb it all
I'm not home please don't call
This depression has me gone
When it's time to talk
But y'all don't listen and that's cool
I could be calling out for help
But y'all probably skipped this song
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Concrete Jungle
03:00
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Ok I'm pissed off
Shit talk
Chalk all over the blacktop
I'm ticked off
Ease up
Next moment you might be squeezed off
This too raw
I'm clocked out
Israel clocked in
I'm too numb
Too done
Venom running through my vains
I'm grusome
In the mood do something
Niggas keep testing me
Let em rest in peace
I'm wrestling with this piece
Prolly end up on the news this week
Homicide never my motif
Oh wait see
Oh Shit
I've been tripping on my own this week
PTSD my survival feat
Seen 3 niggas on the corner last week
Pretty sure they clocking me
I ain't stacking a bunch of cream
Just a lil something to eat
Police be tailing me
Raising my anxiety
They think a nigga deal in criminal activity
I'm just making deliveries
I made a left they still following me
They circled around the block
Two white cops
I can see it in there eyes
They ain't here to talk
I'm feeling pissed off
Too gone
Israel got control
So it's too far, too raw
Running through the jungle
I see evil at every corner
And it's no law, no wrongs
Survival of the fittest
I hope you ain't a shook one
Look son
Two types of people in this world
The robber or the victim
Make yo decision
I'm boxed in
Death stalking
Can't sleep
Cuz I hear they talking
I'm caught again
I can't let go
I'm focused
I notice every single move so watch how you approach
This is every reason why I shouldn't pistol tote
I'm close to exploding
Man walking up to me
Don't look like a friend
But I'm stuck in place
I can't lie I'm frightened
Having thoughts about my past
When my life was threatened
I only got a second
Gotta make a decision
Cuz if this foe wants what's mine
I gotta smoke him before I go
Aim the pistol and let it blow
Gun in my hand
its jammed
I can't pull the trigger
man is getting close
He raises his ready to strike
And then
Nothing
I'm laying in bed
My sheets are soaked
All it was my PTSD playing tricks on me
I'm struggling to cope
I'm feeling pissed off
Too gone
Israel got control
So it's too far, too raw
Running through the jungle
I see evil at every corner
And it's no law, no wrongs
Survival of the fittest
I hope you ain't a shook one
Look son
Two types of people in this world
The robber or the victim
Make yo decision
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Israel Naor Kansas City, Missouri
Innovative, smooth, vibey, and passionate would all be words to describe Israel Naor and his music. Israel Naor is an aspiring rapper and activist from Kansas City. Israel uses his music as a way to inspire and enlighten. He has used the pain and hardships from his past to become a creative outlet that allows his audience to join him on his journey. ... more
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